okay is relative.

see, I've known this guy for close on a year now (nine months?). problem is, he goes to school in phoenix and lives in louisiana. I see him sporadically, at best. and tuesday night, when I was down there seeing my cousin, I got to do everything I've ever wanted to do with him. sexual. nonsexual. postcoital naked talk debate about hemingway. as I told kristin-sunny, such people aren't usual, in my experience. I liked him a lot before. I liked him the first time I saw him. I liked him through words, when I couldn't see him. here's the problem: facebook informs me that, as of about a week ago, he's in a relationship.

once again, okay is relative. but I'm certain this is not okay.

I'm not going to be the other man. his mouth says he likes me a lot, as do his fingers (and I'm talking about words here as well as various sexual opportunances). whilst in the friend stage, he went through a relationship, and I went through whatever the hell those deals were. this is past the friend stage. I like him, if you hadn't gotten that. but what does this say? about him, about me? he sure didn't say anything. am I just one of those people who is utterly iceberged, and that he just wanted to say he slept with me because I'm attractive (he says), no matter what relationship point he was at? does that connote "scummy"?

I usually assume the worst of people. I wish they would stop reinforcing said worst.